Workout 1

Starting over sucks. I mean seriously it really does. I mean you think you're active and you're always moving and on the go, going and doing and you think, I'm going for a jog. Then a mile in you feel like your lungs are going to pop out of your throat. Well.. It happens.

Life is like that. If you read my post "Stepping out on faith" then you know recently I started over. New everything. With that is coming a new attitude and new Jen. I used to be fit. I used to be healthy. I used to be happy. I'm working on finding my way back to all of that, again.

I thought I would try something. A fitness test of sorts, in my eyes I failed. EPIC FAILURE but... it's ok. I have a starting point now. It isn't where I had hoped. Far from it. But.. Now. Now, I know what I need to do to get better and be better. "1 giant leap forward and 2 steps back" I took a leap today now I back up a few steps to and set a goal for the week, next week I up my goal a bit. Maybe I do something similar next weekend to again 'test my fitness' either way next week I progress.

God gave me this body and it has it's quirks but, that's because he gave it to me and he knew that I would need to use it. When I do right and maintain a healthy lifestyle this body works hard for me, running, skydiving, training horses, chasing kids, dogs, whatever. Also, when I do what God tells me to when my body I feel better, I find him in everything, the trees I run past, the dog barking at me, the butterfly that just flew past me. I see God in nature everywhere I turn.

I don't know if this will ever be one of those blogs that pulls in $9k a month, it would be nice but, it's not the requirement. What would be great though is if I can reach another parent. Someone who's struggling with starting over, someone who's feet got knocked out from under them, someone who's alone for the first time in a while, maybe ever, and just trying to figure things out.

What would be nice is if I found a way to blog myself accountable. To be a better mom, christian, jogger, person.

Where there's a will there's a way, right? Well, where there's God there is his will, and his will for my life, my blog, my career, my kids, my animals the whole thing, HIS WILL not mine, HIS TIME, not mine, that's what I want in my life. For the first time probably ever, I'm not just asking God to get me through it, I'm asking God to change me, to get me back on track, to get me on the path I should've been on the last few years.

Workout 1 is just the first in the series of workouts that is going to be the rest of my life. I can't wait to see what tomorrow holds.